yeah...I was suprised when their mother came into my room and told me to come look over the permissions sheet with her right quick and I have all of my permissions w00t w00t...minus sleeping over non-hockaday students houses and taking a taxi to places...w00t w00t!!!!! yeah after this past year I was kind of surprised. she said its because I'm 18 years old. ugh...my dad keeps taking my laptop for no reason and that's why I haven't posted in a million years...but I don't care anymore. I always wanted to write a blog, but I couldn't...argh!!!! Um...OMG I'm getting glasses w00t w00t!!!!! I know I'm a lameo, but I think glasses are sooo cute, and I've wanted to get them for a long time, but I had really good vision. But now since I found out that I have astigmatism and I think I'm a little near sited I get them. I know I'm weird so many people tell me that everyday, but I'm not going to change, so get over it! that is aimed at my brother...who prolly won't read this since...well. yeah. omo I love that facebook thing where it says its like first impression, like, dislike(which I don't do), confession, and a guess at the persons favorite food, if they like my status. ahahaha people are funny, I didn't know how to do, and then finally liked someones status. w00t w00t....my driving skills have improved and the next two times I go driving I have to do rural and expressway driving, which will be fun YEAH!!!!!!!!! IDK I have to finish up soon though because I need my last two drive times before I go back to school. so I can get my license before school starts. OH WELL LIFE IS DREADFUL...here at this house...I went crazy for a little bit, but gained a little sanity back when I left for the past two weekends. Um...what else oh I want to go to london for college, specifically london metropolitan university...American wasn't made for me...at least I don't think so. we'll see I have to get in first.

seriously I did, and I was soooo happy I love singing room aka karaoke. I think I stole my dad's car, my dad was asian oldy enough, and for some reason emma, from degrassi, left me there stranded so I had to call my dad. so I went into this store to wait for him, then I go outside and he's jaywalking over to the car and hands me these leather boots that are really soft inside so I can jaywalk too because I didn't have any shoes or I didn't have the proper shoes for jaywalking. Turns out my dad isn't mad at me or anything so he takes me to norebang where my little white brother is sitting, and then he leaves and says that he won't be back for an hour. WHAT??? the weird thing was that I didn't know it was norebang until he left and then I grabbed the mic and was like NOREBANG!!!!! then all of these people come and I meet this guy and he's like do you like this stuf and I'm like yeah I love karaoke...NOREBANG!!!!!!!! and he I think gets really turned off by that, but when his friends say they want to go the imax place he stays with me. WEIRD!!!!!!! and then I grab the mic and sing that song by DJ Doc run to me or the one that goes "bounce with me, bounce with me, bounce with me, bounce!" the room is packed like to where I was pushed against the wall holding onto that guy's legs or maybe he was holding onto my legs and he was sweaty, but so was everyone else. Then someone woke me up when it was getting good, but thank god I woke up or else I wouldn't have been able to make my makeup tutorial. YAY!!!!!!

speaking of makeup tutorials, I know why I didn't have inspiration/why I wasn't getting as many views as I wanted. I just put up this video at 6:30 or something and it has more views than some of my other videos combined, that have been on there for like a million years. What I realized was that to increase my views I have to post my videos on places and to make them so that people would actually look for them and watch them. I have to think what am I looking for when I'm looking for a makeup tutorial? So I was like celebrity makeup tutorials are always good, so this last one I did Janelle Monae. I thought movies and tv are a good place to get makeup tutorials, so I'm going to do one for True Blood. I mean seriously its crazy; when I thought of all of the makeup tutorials I could do I was almost shocked because I never have had that many ideas before, not even when I started. it all started witht this one picture and grew and grew and then add the eyeshadow palette I just got on top of that...OH GOD!!!!!!!! yeah I think now I have a lot more inspiration, I'm even think about blowing whatever money I get from whatever on MAKEUP and beauty products. yeah I wanted to, I just think of it more now. it just too much. I need to get my other site up and running too.

I need to start posting all of my videos on here because I know I'm not just going to write all of this stuff or maybe I will...IDK and also because I want you guys to see my makeup tutorials. here's my JANELLE MONAE one:

ahahahahaah....yeah happy halloween...oh god the perverted minds of female young adults, but we weren't the ones to say that. It was this comidien called Doug Williams, he's really funny and I just watched him on comedy central AHAHAAHAHAHAHA. anyways I love the nanny, I seriously love the nanny. I'm watching it right now...on nick at nite YAY!!!!! ok so I just made a reconnection with a few BDHS friends of mine, I'm actually really excited, I miss them. I don't get why I didn't talk to them. maybe it was me and my regular self not, you know, keeping ties. I'm going to become better, I want to have lunch with one of my oldest friends soon though. OH AND I'm planning a thing at my house. I don't know how this is going to happen, I think I might be going overboard and counting my chickens before they hatch, oh god the monotomy of my life :( and my hackneyed figures of speech. Ok I'm at a sleepover, but its not one with friends. I'm at my grandmother's house...ahahahaha I can't believe I just wrote that. Oh what I was really going to say [there is just tooooooooooo much rambling and just saying of whatever comes to mind], I realized that I'm mean to the other people that are nice to me. No seriously, I got really peeved with the person that impregnated the woman that gave birth to me because he kept on picking on my brother. I mean this [fill in the blank] continued to bagger my brother because my brother didn't look like he was doing any work for my unlce (he's fixing up a house to sell) and my brother was getting paid for it. I mean he kept on COMPLAINING!!!!! I screamed out that he's mean to the people that are alway nice to him. I mean that [fill in the blank] doesn't talk to me that way, I mean he's so pathetic, that when he speaks I can't understand a word he says, like he's afraid for me to hear what he has to say. I mean what kind of man is afraid of their own daughter, but then again its me and as of today I'm about to go insane. like I have to find a way to transfer my anger effectively or I might get an ulser if I keep ALL OF THAT IN!!!!!! anyways back to that point in time I thought about me and how I treat my sisters. So I started to be nice to them, and I guess that's going ok, but I think they are being meaner to me because they think they can, but just like I did with their ex-friend erin, I cut that shit out. my tounge is like cobra fangs and seriously its nothing withstandable, well if you make me angry enough. Oh and even tried to be nice to my brother's father, ahahahah, that ship has sailed, he's ruined his summer with me. I'm done being nice to that [fill in the blank]. I don't get it...I need to not care, just like I don't care about his opinions of me...less than grain of salt...its not even on an atomic level.